mother in law

so my mother in law who is bi-polar has come to live with us. I'm not sure what ive done to deserve this. Im very pleasant to her but when she starts ranting and raving she un-nerves me completely! oh well i guess i have to suck it up.. i have lost 2 lbs.. victory dance! im thinking im going to gain 5 lbs by just eating out of stress... i know i must sound horrible.. but oh well i dont care... i was blessed with a very pessimistic mother in law .. sees the glass half full always! and god help me she fought with my father in law and drove over to our place... she just keeps dissing the poor man! pray for me!

million things to do and 'honey can you do this too?"

OK so just because I'm at home doesn't mean I'm slacking off! I have my day planned, my errands planned for outside, and my exercise time all set. You do no get to walk in and ask oh so nicely "oh honey, i was wondering if you could d this tomorrow?"
Imagine how you would feel if during a meeting i barged in and said "oh honey can you do this too?" you would probably have a temper tantrum on the spot. so the answer is " no, not tomorrow but definitely the next day" oh well have to run got to go to target and get some things and then have more random errands.
Have a good one :)

so i know im acknoleding my weight

I have always been a healthy 110 lbs. Now i am not claiming to be obese. its just that well i feel comfortable with my body at a certain weight. I doubt it is the ideal weight models or celebs want, but at 110 lbs i feel sexy and confident.
Well all that changed after I got married and started working. Spending long hours sitting in my cube didn't help. Ive managed to make my ass bigger and my thigh. well I call them thunder thighs! I'm not exagrating! i wouldn't wear shorts or a mini if I got paid. The damage to by self esteem with all the snickering would just make me spend all the money on therapy.
So here I am trying to lose 25 lbs which has managed to accumulate on my ass and thighs, even my stomach isn't rotund. At least then maybe I could just say I'm pregnant. but no I'm just a person with a fat ass and thunder thighs :(

Well I've cut back on my diet no more sugar cookies or Doritos's. No more mid meal munchies. Just 4 small meals in a day.

Now if I can just motivate myself to start working out a little. But i can't seem to. I've tried praying, oh god give me the discipline to start working out. but No discipline. Its like those silly new years resolutions. yet I'm determined. So i will start running around the park we have across from our place.